Forgiveness

i know im not catholic or anything, but i feel really bad for all the people out there that are, im sorry for the loss of the pope, and all i can do is hope that he received salvation from God.

does anyone enjoy sea food as much as karen, maria and i do?? yum. have you ever eaten a lobster tail? sounds like fun. anyway, did you all hear about our canadian excursion over thw weekend?? fun fun. cant say i have ever been in that kind of trouble b4 :) well i should go, bye.

God is Faithful.

Genesis 9 [MSG REMIX]
[12]This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and everything living around you and everyone living after you. I'm putting my rainbow in the clouds, a sign of the covenant between me and you and everything living, that never again will floodwaters destroy all life. When the rainbow appears in the cloud, I'll see it and rememeber the eternal covenant between God and everything living, every last living creature on earth.

Most people think the only colors of a rainbow are red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet, but a rainbow is actually made up of an entire continuum of colors—even colors the eye can't see! [read more.] So are God's promises and purposes for those promises more complex than we tend to see with the naked eye, or tend to consider with our feeble minds.

There may not be a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but there are streets of gold at the end of our time.

Just need some prayers for this summer...gonna be long and hard...

Do you ever feel like the life force is just being drained from your body? Well that is exactly how I feel. The past three weeks have been hectic for me with deaths and going home for one of my mom's best friends death and my pioneer leader for 5 years and I have had so many deadlines it is exhausting. Spring break is going to be a drink of spring water after a long run. and I feel like I could drink a whole gallon right now. I have never felt so spiritually, physically and emotionally exhausted at one time, and for so long...God is definately trying to tell me something. Wouldn't it be great if I knew what?

well, today is Saturday, and like always, I'm stuck in my room with mucho homework to do and mucho laundry to do. i'm tired, but that is irrelevant to my existance, because I have to do so many things even though i cant concentrate. prayers out to all my friends that are hurting eoght now, chris-for her grandfather, that her family comes to know the Lord through everything that has happened this past week, and Nicole-for her family and that her dad, even though he is leaving her, will stay in contact with her over the years, and wont totally forget about his family. and i would just like to say Nicole, Im sorry. i had an inkling that you said everything was ok, even though it wasnt, and i should have come to your side and helped you through it all. i love you niki. and im praying for you.

ok, get this, my roommate fell in life fitness and most likely tore her miniscus in her knee, and she already tore her ACL in the same knee. so shes on crutches, and today i sorts slipped on an icy patch and twisted my bad ankel....i wish people were like those punching bags that come back up...we would never fall...anyway, thats about it

Well, the past few days have been a little stressful and tough. I'm just having a little difficulty having a continuous realtionship with God right now because things have been hectic. I finally came to a little bit of reasoning a few days ago. Even though I like someone, I am going to be content in being single because God is not going to bring someone into my life until I least expect it. I will glory in my singleness and be patient for anything to happen. Thats my soap box for the day.

I would just like to issue an all out prayer request for Christina, as most of you know, her grandfather is not doing well at all, so bad that she went back to Buffalo on an emergency trip. Just pray for God's will, and the family's strength, and that God will use this to reach the reat of Chris's family. Thank God a hundred times that her grandfather prayed the sinner's prayer just days ago. Pray like you never prayed before...

well, still missions conference week....ummm. there are very moody girls in my dorm, if anyone knew what was going on this dorm, they would be appalled. anyway, lets just say that even if you are at a christian college, things DO NOT change for the better, most of the time for the worst. i love maria. she is one of my best friends and i appreciated her very much. i dont know what i would do without her, and i sure thank God that i am able to serve her sometimes, even though she is always selflessly either serving me or someone else. i thankk the Lord for you everyday ria :) well, its only about 9, and im getting antsy, so i think i might go to the underground...

well, missions conference week. good thing about it is that we get a lot of time off without classes. me and niki just went out to Bennigans and all i can say about the host is - whoa. i think i may be going there quit frequently...um i think im gonna take a nap because i have time and i can.

this quote seems to sum up my latest troubles:

Telling some one you Love them is never an easy thing, sometimes, that is exactly how Love is lost...

Well, today is White Glove cleaning day, therefore, I have cleaned my whole entire room, which consists of taking everything out from under my bed, vacuuming under there and everywhere, and hiding things in various places around my room, even though that is far from how I live my life. I don't understand, I think they do this twice a year just so they don't have to pay people over the summer to clean all the impossible crap that nobody ever thinks to clean. Anyway, I finished, so all I have to do is wash the dorm stairs, and wash the floor inside our bathroom. But yeah that has been the extent of my day, pretty boring, which is just about every day of my life being a college student and everything, so umm yeah. I guess this means I need to get a life. So I should probably get going to din din before my insides come out in rebellion because I haven't fed them. So see ya.

Today was not an exciting day to tell you the least. It was a regular day filled with classes and a boring chapel speaker, which is a change from getting the privelage of listening to Colin Smith the past few days). Maria and Christina left earlier, and Aj is supposed to be getting here soon. Kind of funny isn't it? Anywhoo, I went on a walk with Lynnie, and we had mucho fun. I love you Lynn!!!

well, i have done absolutely no homework and i dont even know if i have anything thats due tomorrow. anyway, niki, i would quote you on my site, except for the fact that i dont know who would be looking at mine :) anywhoo, ive been doing a lot of thinking lately, and im realy glad im going home next year. its kind of a relief to know that i dont have to spend the next 3 years having to obey all these irritating rules. dont get me wrong though, i love bbc and the people are amazing, but i cant stand obeying pointless rules, its like, "yeah, when i get older and married, im going to have all these rules to abide by, and if i dont do them, my life will fall apart" i mean coe on, i know this is a ministry school, and they know we have to obey authrity, but come on, i think they r taking advantage of the fact that we need to obey them, and i know they r preparing us for ministry, but why dont they prepare us for real life too? isnt that what you r supposed to be learning? sooner or later you r going to be free from all authority (except the govt of course) and you have to have discernment for what you will be doing. i know they mean well, but geez, we get a point for not having our church charts filled out by thurs. yup. definatley gonna enforce that rule for my kids...anyway, i just want to say i love you nicole, and im so glad i came here cuz one of the greatest things i gained while being cooped up was you as a friend:) and i really hope that we can stay in touch for years to come...but if anything does happen with communicating ith each other, i want you to know that i love you, and i will NEVER forget you, and the hard times weve been through, and the impact that you had on my life. thanks:)

I sometimes wonder why God put certain people in my life, and I ponder this for a very long time, but for some odd reason, after a long time, I still have not come to a conclusion...I think God is doing this to make me frustrated...

hey hey, well, you r lucky that i decided to update, because i hate updating. anyways, i got a pretty good amount of school work done over the weekend (which is pretty surprising) and today is sunday and i still have a ton of stuff to do. we got lots of snow down here believe it or not, and like the whole state is shut down, when if we were back in buffalo, we would be carrying on as if it were a normal day. but i need to go play dutch blitz now, so c you.

I have a meeting at 3:00, so I am not going to go to west civ so i dont end up late, because i hate being late for anything. i am a very punctual person unless its some get together with friends, then its ok to be late so that you can make a grand entrance and everyone thinks your cool and everything and your like the guest of honor. Sometimes its cool to be the center of attention, while other times its not so cool, and you wish you could just melt into the floor or something like that, like when you have to give a speech or something, which thankfully i dont have to do (he he jeff) and i only have to lead my english class in one class discussion and i get to do it with another person. Thank you lord! so, one thing that i learned today is that what i just finished writing is known as "freewriting" which is when you write down whatever comes to your head. kind of like a random stream of thought. i just want to say hi to all my buddies back home and...um...i guess thats it.

Well, first entry yeah....